Finish line šŸŽŠ

I was beyond exhausted and my feet had alread had one too many steps. But I didn’t give up! And as crazy as it was, I met my 5 mile walk. There were bumps along the road, literally, there were times where the back of a car sounded a lot more pleasant, but I didn’t give up!!! And that’s what makes me so proud. Determination is all we need to succeed, no matter how small or large our goals are, we can do it!

Yesterday I experienced a challenge. I went on a 5 mile walk without the proper gear. I had a companion that is too small to walk without finishing his legs within 10 minutes. That’s right, my chihuahua Ottis was with me. And although he’s a funny little guy, he prefers the indoors. The perfection of his comfy bed, pillow and blanket! Throughout the way as we were walking he’d scratch my leg when he was tired, meaning he wanted up. Just like a toddler, I know! I’d keep walking with him in one hand and my bag in the other, almost as if there was no time to stop. We took three five minute breaks but I was determined to make it back with no help. During the walk all I could think of was the finish line, soon the walking would be over, that carrying would be over and I’d relax in bed and rest my feet. But talk about the excruciating pain my feet were in, I was wearing flip flops.. But as I kept walking I kept reminding myself I was almost there, even when I wanted to give up, I was almost there! My goal? The finish line to achieve something I started, something I put myself to and decided to finish. To which I did, my crazy 5 mile walk was finally over! I made it to the finish line. And throughout our lives, we have so many challenges, so many goals and projects we would like to achieve. However, we don’t, we don’t because we take too many breaks, because we find ourselves too busy, too involved in other things. My walk took about three hours and a half, possibly a little less or a little more, and it wasn’t until I had 30 minutes left that I wanted to give up, so I called a taxi, which they didn’t accept dogs, I could have kept calling other companies, but I didn’t. One “No ma’am we don’t accept dogs” was enough for me to continue on walking! And by that point I was beyond tired, I was beyond exhausted and my feet had alread had one too many steps. But I didn’t give up! And as crazy as it was, I met my 5 mile walk. There were bumps along the road, literally, there were times where the back of a car sounded a lot more pleasant, but I didn’t give up!!! And that’s what makes me so proud. Determination is all we need to succeed, no matter how small or large our goals are, we can do it! There is literally nothing stopping us, and if you think there is, those are bumps along the way, but they can be walked on.. Motivation and determination! Live by them. Don’t close your wings, spread them, and fly to your next project you’ve been dying to do but have been too scared or too busy for, do it, I believe in you, and most importantly deep down Inside, I know you believe in you too! 

The beginningĀ 

I realized that I didn’t want to drawn, not only did I not want to drown but I didn’t want to swim either, I wanted to fly, I wanted to spread my wings and fly!

Drowning. That feeling of drowning can be suffocating, emotionally, physically and mentally. It’s like everywhere you look, no matter what you think, no matter what you hear, there isn’t a lifeguard strong enough to bring you back to shore. It almost feels like that’s the way, like there’s nothing better than to finally let go, but we forget that spiritually there’s the God all mighty, we forget that he’s that experience life guard, waiting for us to call on him so that he can bring us back to shore and bring our breathing to a normal state. And that’s exactly how I came back to shore. I didn’t want to keep drowning, feeling suffocated, feeling like there was no way to be better than to end it all. And I tried, twice actually. And both times, my experience lifeguard, the Lord almighty, the only one possible that will always be there, he helped me back to shore. And though the process wasn’t easy, I can say it was successful. And I held on to my faith and everyday it’s growing more and as my faith grows, my strength grows, and each and every second of my life I started to find myself. I realized that I didn’t want to drawn, not only did I not want to drown but I didn’t want to swim either, I wanted to fly, I wanted to spread my wings and fly! I started to love myself again, it was like I had finally found a true meaning to life, and I became excited for what the next day would bring! I began planning my future once again, I began enjoying those sunny days, the not so sunny and even the dark. I realized in life nothing is easy, and it’s not suppose to, it’s what makes us strong, who we are, who we are meant to be. No matter where we go there will always be someone who we can make an impact on, who we can cheer on. Now I always know, no matter what, there is always sunshine at the end. And with time, I can see and enjoy a little bit more of that sunshine. And that is who I am today! I am strong, I am a fighter, I am a leader and most importantly I love myself! That is how I learned to spread my wings and fly. There is no giving up, there’s a full journey ahead of us, it won’t stop, not today, not tomorrow, there’s still a long way to go! So keep fighting, keep pushing, be who you are meant to be..