From Mexico to America: I am DACA 

I’m from a country where the native language is Spanish, the skin color is naturally tan and tortillas are used over forks. A place that is commonly known for the two T’s: tacos and tequila.  The flag green, white and red with an eagle, nopal and snake planted mid center. A beautiful country full of color and life. My birth country is Mexico. 🇲🇽 

And I’m currently living in the Stars and Stripes. Where the Star Spangled Banner proudly sung by its citizens. A country full of colors and languages although it’s know for its English. It’s big on hotdogs, burgers, Football and apple pie. American Idol, the Super Bowl, Law and Order, Dancing with the stars are everyone’s favorite. A country knows for the American Dream, the land of opportunities and achievements. A country I grew up to love, one I learned to adapt to, the one I call home. My home is in the United States of America aka ‘Mericaaa! 🇺🇸 

The items that follow are false: We get financial aid, We qualify for Fasfa, We qualify for Obama Care, We qualify for food stamps, We qualify for cheaper college tuition, We don’t pay taxes, We are stealing jobs, We are criminals, We are dangerous, We are taking advantage of the government. 

Truth is, all the above are false. The biggest truth is most undocumented immigrants pay more for college even if they live in state, Only way to obtain health insurance is through a private company, We pay taxes, We are not criminals, We are not dangerous. We take whatever job we can get. We cannot take advantage of the government, it’s built so that we can’t, no hand outs no compassion.

Yet, we strive to survive. Being foreign is one thing. But “illegal,” is nerve-wrecking. No room to move because you have to watch everything including your own shadow. Even though some of us qualified for DACA, our parents are left with no hope. No promises to see a brighter day. As a daughter of parents who received college education it breaks my heart to know they aren’t able to exercise the sacrifice they made to obtain their degrees. Every day is a challenge knowing today could be the day so you can’t ever be too comfortable. 

Why are we here? No future in our country. No safety. No promises to succeed. Corrupt government. Simple. 

You may wonder why we decided to come to USA when things aren’t any better here for us.. “THE AMERICAN DREAM!” It’s televised everywhere, it’s promised on foreign lands, it’s talked about daily, it’s whispered amongst one another, it’s a dream that followed us to our motherland and gave us hope.  

DACA granted me Peace. Being able to obtain a drivers license and work “legally,” turned into floating on clouds. I no longer had to be afraid of my own shadow, however I fear for my elders. 

DACA gave me a piece of my sanity back. It stopped the panic attacks, social anxiety and night full of tears. The terror was gone, I had a chance to do something for myself.

And on September 5th, all the good was taken away from me and the bad came. Although it won’t be until a year from now that my permit expires, I’m dumbfounded. I’m scared, I’m worried, I’m terrified to loose everything I worked and dreamed so hard to obtain. 

And I’m sorry if you feel I don’t belong. I’m sorry if you feel I have no right. I’m sorry if I make you afraid. I’m sorry if I make you upset. I’m sorry if I’m “invading” your country. But I’m not sorry for following “THE AMERICAM DREAM,” you so loudly televised. 

This country became my home. I am part of what makes America.  Believe it or not, I’m just like you. I mean no harm, I mean no wrong. I’m here to provide and become someone just like you. It’s a land of opportunities, it’s a land of many virtues. My heart will forever beat for my country and it will cheer and praise for the red, white and blue. 

This is my home. This is my dream. I support DACA, I am DACA. 

Finish line 🎊

I was beyond exhausted and my feet had alread had one too many steps. But I didn’t give up! And as crazy as it was, I met my 5 mile walk. There were bumps along the road, literally, there were times where the back of a car sounded a lot more pleasant, but I didn’t give up!!! And that’s what makes me so proud. Determination is all we need to succeed, no matter how small or large our goals are, we can do it!

Yesterday I experienced a challenge. I went on a 5 mile walk without the proper gear. I had a companion that is too small to walk without finishing his legs within 10 minutes. That’s right, my chihuahua Ottis was with me. And although he’s a funny little guy, he prefers the indoors. The perfection of his comfy bed, pillow and blanket! Throughout the way as we were walking he’d scratch my leg when he was tired, meaning he wanted up. Just like a toddler, I know! I’d keep walking with him in one hand and my bag in the other, almost as if there was no time to stop. We took three five minute breaks but I was determined to make it back with no help. During the walk all I could think of was the finish line, soon the walking would be over, that carrying would be over and I’d relax in bed and rest my feet. But talk about the excruciating pain my feet were in, I was wearing flip flops.. But as I kept walking I kept reminding myself I was almost there, even when I wanted to give up, I was almost there! My goal? The finish line to achieve something I started, something I put myself to and decided to finish. To which I did, my crazy 5 mile walk was finally over! I made it to the finish line. And throughout our lives, we have so many challenges, so many goals and projects we would like to achieve. However, we don’t, we don’t because we take too many breaks, because we find ourselves too busy, too involved in other things. My walk took about three hours and a half, possibly a little less or a little more, and it wasn’t until I had 30 minutes left that I wanted to give up, so I called a taxi, which they didn’t accept dogs, I could have kept calling other companies, but I didn’t. One “No ma’am we don’t accept dogs” was enough for me to continue on walking! And by that point I was beyond tired, I was beyond exhausted and my feet had alread had one too many steps. But I didn’t give up! And as crazy as it was, I met my 5 mile walk. There were bumps along the road, literally, there were times where the back of a car sounded a lot more pleasant, but I didn’t give up!!! And that’s what makes me so proud. Determination is all we need to succeed, no matter how small or large our goals are, we can do it! There is literally nothing stopping us, and if you think there is, those are bumps along the way, but they can be walked on.. Motivation and determination! Live by them. Don’t close your wings, spread them, and fly to your next project you’ve been dying to do but have been too scared or too busy for, do it, I believe in you, and most importantly deep down Inside, I know you believe in you too! 

Judgment Day

Ever realized how physically draining it is to be judged with every step you take. There’s always the “why are you doing that,” “why did you say that,” or even “why do you like that?” It’s as if someone was trying to shame your entire existence. My color is black because I like it that way! I am wearing this band because I like it! Nevertheless, there is always someone saying something. No matter what, there will always be someone saying something. Judgments will come everyday, but the one that matter is the one we all know as Judgment Day. The day we finally get to stand before the almighty and recap on our lives on earth. And are you ready? Can you say you’ve lived your life the best to your ability? Did you help when it was asked? Did you surprise the needy without request? Did you remember to put the Lord before the start of your everyday? Probably yes, just not every day. Each day should be lived without a regret the next day. So good, be good, and give good! Something’s it hard, but pray a little harder, laugh a little louder and never live your life with regret. Your judgment day will come, and that’s the only judgment that matters. Don’t let anyone’s negativity or over exalting remarks be the lighting of your sunny afternoon. Be positive, think positive and move on! 💝

The brighter days 

Those are the days when right before bed I pray a little harder and I hurt a little longer.

There is days when joy is my first name and happy feet my last.. There’s days when no matter how rude someone is to me or how terrible the food I just ate was, my day can’t be ruined. Those are the days when right before bed I pray a little harder and I hurt a little longer. All the happiness and joy goes away when the sun goes down. After a full day of being optimistic everything becomes.. annoying, to say the least. Annoying because after a day of being optimistic in a world where everyone is quite the opposite you hit a breaking point, how can people be so cynical, so ignorant, so negative? Everyone is focused about half empty half full cup but are never thankful for having that cup. We are thought to believe that if something isn’t given to us, we can whine, kick and scream but God forbid we actually do something to help the situation, like are you kidding, it’s 2017.. everything should be given to us at the snap of a finger. ​

Sometime we want to run away and find ourselves in a secluded area, away for negativity and burdens. But that’s running away from your problems. Meanings it’ll never go away, it will always follow you. That is, unless you do something about it. Anything that is broken can be fixed.. Nothing is untouchable, unbarebale or even undesirable, we just think it is. Because it’s easier to be upset at what is right there than to try and figure out a brighter side. So when the brighter days are over and the night begins to dance, pray a little harder, sing a little harder, take some time to yourself. And remember everything will be just fine, just spread your wings and fly! 😊

“And if you don’t believe the sun will rise, stand alone and greet the coming night in the last remaining light.”

 -Chris Cornell