Finish line 🎊

Yesterday I experienced a challenge. I went on a 5 mile walk without the proper gear. I had a companion that is too small to walk without finishing his legs within 10 minutes. That’s right, my chihuahua Ottis was with me. And although he’s a funny little guy, he prefers the indoors. The perfection of his comfy bed, pillow and blanket! Throughout the way as we were walking he’d scratch my leg when he was tired, meaning he wanted up. Just like a toddler, I know! I’d keep walking with him in one hand and my bag in the other, almost as if there was no time to stop. We took three five minute breaks but I was determined to make it back with no help. During the walk all I could think of was the finish line, soon the walking would be over, that carrying would be over and I’d relax in bed and rest my feet. But talk about the excruciating pain my feet were in, I was wearing flip flops.. But as I kept walking I kept reminding myself I was almost there, even when I wanted to give up, I was almost there! My goal? The finish line to achieve something I started, something I put myself to and decided to finish. To which I did, my crazy 5 mile walk was finally over! I made it to the finish line. And throughout our lives, we have so many challenges, so many goals and projects we would like to achieve. However, we don’t, we don’t because we take too many breaks, because we find ourselves too busy, too involved in other things. My walk took about three hours and a half, possibly a little less or a little more, and it wasn’t until I had 30 minutes left that I wanted to give up, so I called a taxi, which they didn’t accept dogs, I could have kept calling other companies, but I didn’t. One “No ma’am we don’t accept dogs” was enough for me to continue on walking! And by that point I was beyond tired, I was beyond exhausted and my feet had alread had one too many steps. But I didn’t give up! And as crazy as it was, I met my 5 mile walk. There were bumps along the road, literally, there were times where the back of a car sounded a lot more pleasant, but I didn’t give up!!! And that’s what makes me so proud. Determination is all we need to succeed, no matter how small or large our goals are, we can do it! There is literally nothing stopping us, and if you think there is, those are bumps along the way, but they can be walked on.. Motivation and determination! Live by them. Don’t close your wings, spread them, and fly to your next project you’ve been dying to do but have been too scared or too busy for, do it, I believe in you, and most importantly deep down Inside, I know you believe in you too! 

Sweet Sugar & A Bitter Heart

It’s national doughnut day and I can’t help but think of all the sweet and free donuts out there. Glazed. Chocolate. Sprinkles no Sprinkles. AND even bacon. It’s all sweet while our world is actually bitter. Bitter with negativity, violence and politics. Ewww! As social media is growing so it the hatred in our hearts. Because of the first amandment in the Constitution of the United State we have freedom of speech, therefore we feel it is STRONGLY urged to say and do as we’d like. We forgot how important the word FEELINGS is. We stopped caring about our family, our friends, our neighbors and sometimes even ourselves. But really who can blame us right? After all, the world is moving and we can’t stay behind. Wrong! We have the power to make a difference, no matter how small or how big. Chain reactions is real, your voice can and will make a diffrence! Don’t keep trying to fly with your wings cut off, heal and then fly, even if you have to learn again. Loving and kindness isn’t hard.  We all have it in us, so just like that sweet sugar make it part of your day so spread a positive input in someone’s life. Oh and don’t forget your free donut! 😊🤗

Judgment Day

Ever realized how physically draining it is to be judged with every step you take. There’s always the “why are you doing that,” “why did you say that,” or even “why do you like that?” It’s as if someone was trying to shame your entire existence. My color is black because I like it that way! I am wearing this band because I like it! Nevertheless, there is always someone saying something. No matter what, there will always be someone saying something. Judgments will come everyday, but the one that matter is the one we all know as Judgment Day. The day we finally get to stand before the almighty and recap on our lives on earth. And are you ready? Can you say you’ve lived your life the best to your ability? Did you help when it was asked? Did you surprise the needy without request? Did you remember to put the Lord before the start of your everyday? Probably yes, just not every day. Each day should be lived without a regret the next day. So good, be good, and give good! Something’s it hard, but pray a little harder, laugh a little louder and never live your life with regret. Your judgment day will come, and that’s the only judgment that matters. Don’t let anyone’s negativity or over exalting remarks be the lighting of your sunny afternoon. Be positive, think positive and move on! 💝

The brighter days 

There is days when joy is my first name and happy feet my last.. There’s days when no matter how rude someone is to me or how terrible the food I just ate was, my day can’t be ruined. Those are the days when right before bed I pray a little harder and I hurt a little longer. All the happiness and joy goes away when the sun goes down. After a full day of being optimistic everything becomes.. annoying, to say the least. Annoying because after a day of being optimistic in a world where everyone is quite the opposite you hit a breaking point, how can people be so cynical, so ignorant, so negative? Everyone is focused about half empty half full cup but are never thankful for having that cup. We are thought to believe that if something isn’t given to us, we can whine, kick and scream but God forbid we actually do something to help the situation, like are you kidding, it’s 2017.. everything should be given to us at the snap of a finger. ​

Sometime we want to run away and find ourselves in a secluded area, away for negativity and burdens. But that’s running away from your problems. Meanings it’ll never go away, it will always follow you. That is, unless you do something about it. Anything that is broken can be fixed.. Nothing is untouchable, unbarebale or even undesirable, we just think it is. Because it’s easier to be upset at what is right there than to try and figure out a brighter side. So when the brighter days are over and the night begins to dance, pray a little harder, sing a little harder, take some time to yourself. And remember everything will be just fine, just spread your wings and fly! 😊

“And if you don’t believe the sun will rise, stand alone and greet the coming night in the last remaining light.”

 -Chris Cornell 

The beginning 

Drowning. That feeling of drowning can be suffocating, emotionally, physically and mentally. It’s like everywhere you look, no matter what you think, no matter what you hear, there isn’t a lifeguard strong enough to bring you back to shore. It almost feels like that’s the way, like there’s nothing better than to finally let go, but we forget that spiritually there’s the God all mighty, we forget that he’s that experience life guard, waiting for us to call on him so that he can bring us back to shore and bring our breathing to a normal state. And that’s exactly how I came back to shore. I didn’t want to keep drowning, feeling suffocated, feeling like there was no way to be better than to end it all. And I tried, twice actually. And both times, my experience lifeguard, the Lord almighty, the only one possible that will always be there, he helped me back to shore. And though the process wasn’t easy, I can say it was successful. And I held on to my faith and everyday it’s growing more and as my faith grows, my strength grows, and each and every second of my life I started to find myself. I realized that I didn’t want to drawn, not only did I not want to drown but I didn’t want to swim either, I wanted to fly, I wanted to spread my wings and fly! I started to love myself again, it was like I had finally found a true meaning to life, and I became excited for what the next day would bring! I began planning my future once again, I began enjoying those sunny days, the not so sunny and even the dark. I realized in life nothing is easy, and it’s not suppose to, it’s what makes us strong, who we are, who we are meant to be. No matter where we go there will always be someone who we can make an impact on, who we can cheer on. Now I always know, no matter what, there is always sunshine at the end. And with time, I can see and enjoy a little bit more of that sunshine. And that is who I am today! I am strong, I am a fighter, I am a leader and most importantly I love myself! That is how I learned to spread my wings and fly. There is no giving up, there’s a full journey ahead of us, it won’t stop, not today, not tomorrow, there’s still a long way to go! So keep fighting, keep pushing, be who you are meant to be..